12AM!
29/02/07.
LEAP YEAR!
So much on leap year!
Stories,
movie!
And of course not my year.
Have not been very good this year.

No money,
no luck,
no love,
no friends,
only bad things come to me.

How unlucky,
even the person i wish to talk to is...
stupid leap year!



Cravings for chocolate and icecream!



What have i done this time?
Anything please,
But please dont ignore me.



What happen?
I am in a mess.
Confusion.
And i hate it.
Why must all this happen to me?
I just wanna know what happen cant i?
Dint you said before that you was gonna tell me things?

Lie! Liar!
Maybe promise are really meant to be broken.

Hate! Anger! Fuck!



WEEE!
After viewing smartie blogs,
i found something right!
Everything happens for a reason.
True,
theres nothing that happen without a reason.
Theres no nothing to a happening.

I am gonna catch a fever soon.
I am in pain already,
the worst thing is i still have to work tomorrow.

I am alone alone,
LONELY!



Why?!
Why am i running away?
Why am i hiding everything?
I am not me anymore.

I wanna talk to you,
but it's something stopping me,
maybe i dont wanna get involve in things,
and causing problem again.
I felt like i cant face you anymore.

I miss.



Oh yes.
It's sunday again.
Time really pass so fast...
i have lots to complain about,
i will have to work tomorrow!
How sad,
sometimes i wish i was back to school.
So i can wish i dont have to work.
Kids want to grow up,
but after they grow up they want to be a kid once more,
how ironic.

I wish i was a kids once more,
so i dont have to study dont have to work,
be given love and happiness,
no worry dont needa fall in love,
dont needa suffer,
like how i am suffering right now.

I wish things were told,
now theres a silence between us.
So quiet,
how have you been i wondered?.
How actually are you?
Guess its happy than ever,
from the smile on your face i can see.
Sometimes i wish i wasn't in this world,
i am just troubles to people.

Looks like i have to be alone for now.
Joey!
Talk to me!
Joey said shes gonna bring me to shopping next week.
How stupid,
and i gonna spend all my money on it,
clothes for poly,
mp3...

I wish,
i wish...
You will just talk to me.
Dont know if all these reach out to you,
but i just wanna talk.



“It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves”
I shall create my own destiny...

and my destiny is you.

When will i know that you are the one?
Its a different kinda feeling...
Happy,
Make us forget the past and everything. :)
Patient is the thingy.

Finally!
It's saturday,
time for a break!



BOOBOO!
I haven't have enough time!
How i wish i have 48 hours a day!
I everyday slept at 10-11pm,
and came home at 9.
I dont even have time to bath or cut my nail.
everyday its a routine.

Come home,
have dinner,
use computer for a while and slp!
without bathing..hahas

So dirty!

I miss.... :)



So tired!
Working is so tiring!

If only all this tireness can bring it to the future,
Where i got my own family.

Come home everyday tired and sleepy,
when i reach home see my 眼睛糖糖...
so sweet luh,
dinner prepared,
being take care :)
I want the life!

眼睛糖糖 :)



Tomorrow is the day!
We gonna be posted at different place.
Good bye my friends.
We may never talk anymore...
This is what happen....
I dont wanna lose any friends!
I hate this feeling.
oh..nevermind.

Tomorrow morning 8am.

I feel excited,
do you?

Anyone to lose but you.

There can only be 1 to love,
but there can be many to like...
and i love you.



After reading so much.
I realise everything.
I know i should stop..
I will...
After this post i will be new.
A new zheyue. :)
forget about the past...
start from new..
its not like we arent friends right...

but somethings cant be change no matter how new i am.
Friends,
Love,
Guardian angel.

A new me!



A new friend and a colleague at work!
Wonderful...
Someone to listen to my problems..
Like a elder sister!

I guess what joey say is right...
now isit the time yet.

Hy was right sometimes too...

about the promise issue.
Forget it..hahas

All i wanna do is find a way back into love.
I am still in love.

Havent play dota for so long..
getting rusty.



Oh..
Forget about the love issue.
It just cause more misunderstanding..
myabe next time.



You need some fucking brain wash!
You pea-brain.

What am i thinking of?
I wanna ask myself why have i been in my naive thinking.
I dont expect anything,
but still i gave something..
Why?
cause i love you.
and what i get in return a damn message that hurt.

Sometimes i regret helping.
changing my blogs and stuff.
why?
What to i get in return?
Treat?
when?
Friends?
treating me cold?
Altough all this is what i get,
but if i had to choose again.
I still go for the same choice.
Since you dont believe in forever love.
Then what for go to such extent.
Breaking up for you is natural..
its just a matter of time long or short.
Guys do have army you know.. :)

And bout the promise.
i really dont know if you will break it or not.
but i really hope..
you wont.



Hmmm...
Theres a question i wonder all this time.
Whats a Bf or Gf for,
if you dont believe that love will last.

If you think its for the happiness or sweetness,
like how a guy or a girl treat each other,
then dont you think its too much?

It definately shows that you are kinda selfish person.
Just because for that sweetness or happiness,
someone got hurt so badly...
If you want someone to send you home or taking care of you isnt family and friends enough?
I am not talking about anyone here...
just some general topics.
As i've a friend who got hurt because of this issue.
and that person is..... hy.
Just because of this he turn into a bastard.

If love dont last i wonder where you were born.
Your parents just gaved birth and divorce?
Married just for the sake of giving birth.
Thats so stupid.

I watch my cousin relative getting married and that have proven it.
True love and forever love do happen.
Its just whether you give yourself a chance to believe it or not.
If you insist on believing there are no forever love..
then you better not let me see you getting married,
cause its just plain watsing time...
Soon you will watse resources getting divorce.
yada yada yada...

i shall update this issue next time...
Its a long issue.

I believe in forever love,
do you?



Lonely Valentine!
Pressie still with me.
Even valentine i cant pass dee pressie..
hmmm.



...
Do every relationship have to end up having cold wars?
Or not even friends?
I really hate to lose a friend because of this you know..
Hope you understand.
Losing a friend isnt worthy at all!
hahas.

Talk still.
Be frank.
and dont break the promise thats all i want pls..



theres something else happen today i got scam!
nvm i blog bout it tomorrow!



Wahahas!
Playing blackjack now,
while blogging.

So bored chinese new year no people online de,
no people to talk to online or on phone someone call me pls.
I needa chat.

Somebody chat with me!
I am a good listener!

Was talking to francis just now on the way home,
was wondering of some question.
But i still think my answer was right!

Ok!
I have decided no matter what happen!
I will stay to my heart!
My answer!

Wait then.. :)
I will wait hahas.
I love... :)

Your guardian....



WEEE!
Happy new year to everyone,
especially you!

Time flies.
Another new year has began.

Went to relative house today...
My cousin who just got married had a dog..
so cute luh.
I wanted to take photo with it..
but no one wanna help me..
so i only took photo of the dog!
Its name is Brandy..
I forgotten isit a male or a female.



Brandy..
SO CUTE!

I had a dream like those of 公主小妹.
A dog, work and a wife.
so sweet.

My newly couple cousin's living method was really cute too.
They both were lazy to get stuff and they played scissors, paper, stone.
cute hur,
and went to walk Brandy together..
so sweet luh.
I want to have a life like that..
why cant i? :(

Why have i got to go through this..

I hope..
I wait..
I love...

Your guardian angel. :)



I just came home from pai pai.
Dont know why...
i usually dont go to these type of things.
lazy..
but today i went!
I told my parents to bring me there.
Went there because of you.
Although i keep telling myself its not.

for.........us..

Please grant my wish!

Although i dont know how long it might take.
Days, months, years.
or maybe never.

But thanks alot.
For a friend. :)

Felt so emotional at times...
I cant..
help it.



I hope for a shooting star.
I hope i dream of you...
and i still do dream of you.

If you ever ask me if i still....
My ans would be that i still do.



Sad...

Let me be your guardian angel will you?
Listening to this song makes me...
think of you...

When we started knowing each other..
i was your guardian angel..
now and always...
i will be... :)

Ask for help ok.. :)



Weeeee,
I am blogging from my workplace.

I am not sure if my message got through,
but...
I was really glad that there's no message from... today
But maybe i will be disappoint tomorrow...
or...
maybe next time?

I really dont understand you know..sometimes..
How you think are really different from others.
Complicated...

Sometimes you really fucked me up.
I really dont know how to say it then you will know.

Stubborn..
as...
usual.

But...
Thats what makes me...
want you. :)



BASTARD.
Petty.
All i can think of.
YOU SUCKS BADLY.
I HATE IT!

Utterly disappointed.
How can this type of person be alive.

How unfair is this world man.
Francis this type of people no girlfriend.
That kind of person actually got 1 good one...
still his a fucker.
Francis is MILLION TIMES BETTER!
Far better than him.
I really dont get it.

I wish he die!
Tomorrow!
Car crash!
Get stab!
LOSERS!
DIE DIE DIE!
Jump down and die la.
Wasting people's time only.

So fucking petty for fuck,
when she's already yours.
Doesn't she have any rights to make friends?
As well lock her at home just for yourself bastard.

Although i said i am not sad.
But i really are.
Such a bastard is worthy for you to do things till such a extent?
Downgrading yourself just for an ass?
making yourself look so....
Although i dont mind being made use of...
What i really mind is you!
You, how others feel..how you feel bout yourself...
I am ok with helping..but how you feel?
if you really feel good then i think helping you out is ok.
Why not just tell him.
if he dont believe just whats the point of being together man.
Dont believe then break la...
Better than letting him controlling what you do.

You can runaway now...
but not forever,
just face it la.
get into reality.
shouldnt you face a problem then running away from it?
Whats the point of lying?
Shouldnt every relationship be honest?
So what if you can lie now.
What if he found out?
Lie again?
You can lie to everyone but not yourself.

The only choice now is either you lose a friend or lose a guy.
Your choice.

Losing a guy sounds much cheaper.
Such unworthy guy isit that good...
How i wish...
That guy was Francis.
At least i believe Francis more!

Anger upset.
Anything...

Its better to face a problem then to runaway from it.

Forget it.
Smartie was right...
I shouldnt get so work up over an ass.

Brother was right too...
It wouldnt........... the judge quickLy gAve back Six prizes To the women.

Nevermind, You happy can le.
Just remember my promises!
Thats all i want in return.



Valentine day is coming!
How i wish..
you...you......
wouldnt go out with....

I am free on valentine. :(



I remembered something in 公主小妹
and found it really useful.
I shall quote it!

你生我的气
你可以说出来啊
可是你不要躲着我
我会受不了 你知不知道
你可以生气我
你可以嘲笑我
但是你不要这样对我

And

我就不想相信你看不出来
我一值很勇敢的面对自己的感情
可是你呢
为什么你不敢面对
为什么你要把你的喜怒哀乐藏起来

oh...
How i wish .... will understand.
Sometimes things just dont happen your way.

I really wanna know..
how...
feel...
Why?
must...
you...
keep...
everything...
to...
yourself...

I dare to face it...
why not...

Even if it isnt good...
Even if i am irritating...
Why?

Treat me like normal...
Can?
Isit really very...
I just wanna be normal...

I just want a friend...
Nothing else.
Sometimes my question just got void away.
erase!
Rubbish...

Guess i talked too much and ask too much...
Maybe...
just maybe...
this is what you wanted... :(
Sometimes just sometimes...
how i wish i was your besties...

Guess no one should understand this except me...

I cant hide my feelings!
#$%^&@!
I just have to say it!
I love .......... STILL!



Love can make someone change into a good or bad person.



I am me!
Must wake up..
Now it's different already.
I can do it... :)

I miss....



Just finish watching 公主小妹...
Sooo touching!
How i wish it would happen in life...
My life...



Ahhhhhhh!
What am i thinking...
Everytime when i am alone with my lappie...
i tend to view......
and i hate it! :(

Next time i should go sleep instead
and leave everything inside.

You really forgotten.
Friday 1 Feb 2008...

Friends?
Where are you...
I need help!
I need someone to talk to me now!
I mean now! 0333am

I really misses.....

i am zheyue!
happiness
simple as that
=]

friends,family,love,care.
Ngee Ann poly!
You as a friend.
A promise.
眼睛糖糖

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ruikiat.
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weiling.
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sweekee.
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shiyun.
siewching.
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